This video puts what I've been feeling for about a month into words... I have been wandering around in my head, lost and irritated, and I have been letting my relationship suffer because of this. 14 years would be a lot to throw away, and I'm not willing to do that, but I have been apathetic and selfish and stupid. Grief is no easy emotion to master, but it is also no excuse for hurting the ones you love either. I can't wrap myself in pain and anguish, and expect it not to affect the ones closest to me....

Thanks for the lesson Adam, It truly meant more than you could possibly realize...